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@ Wednesday, March 12, 2008 | 
comment? - 0 comment(s) im feelin kinda empty now...actually v empty..its like i feel so sian to be bak hme even though i missed my 2bestfrens..i actually wonder if they even treat me as a fren luhhs.but they are the only ppl hu actually cared abt me i guess?
looked into the mirror&wondered if im actually real or am i stil jus a kid dreaming i was 13?
i felt so stupid wen i saw myself bcos im so stupid and so ugly i wish i was stil 3yrsold or mayb nv came into the earth theres no use or my wishing cos it'll nv cme true cos i guess i have alr lived the 13 yrs of my life and if i really died nobody would care cos jus bcos i get angry easily nowadays they say i have ap its not like i wan to get angry over little things.its jus tt i cnt help it i noe its always my fault wen we both end up fighting cos u think im older than him so i shld giv in
have u ever thot i had feelings jus like any normal humans u see standing ard? im so ****ed up wif my life,i think ending it would b the easiest but wen i see the ppl i loved so much i do not have the courage to continue.i noe i totally suck but even though u always scold me and blame me for every single thing tt happens frm u falling or tripping over stuff to my brother and i fighting i still love u both but i cnt help but get so angry.i dno if im angry wif myself or angry wif u both.
i dnt have enough courage to hurt myself physically cos if i had i would have killed myself long ago.so i guess u all mus b sad tt i didnt have enough courage...im so sry so so so sry.
i cnt wait for netball tgr tmr.i wonder wat we are goin to do.but smtimes im so tired i feel like quiting netball but i noe i cnt live wifout it.y mus i have knee pain y mus my ankle hurt even aft running a short distance?its so unfair to me.im jus so so so so so tired....
