hello.im bak into the negative thinking again.i really need smone i can TRUST srsly.cos this yr rochelle streaming dnt wan disturb her.so now all i can do is keep everything to myself.sry for all the times wen im so noisy myself but wen im doin work and ppl are making noise i ask you all to keep quiet,sry for being so selfish and self-centered and thinking of myself only.i said it wifout thinking.sry,pls forgive me..

theres so much work nowadays.i dnt even have a life man.and theres so many test which i can only fail or jus pass.which is not wat i want.but im not working hard for wat i want.im jus slacking away and jus finish my h/w and never revise.MYE is cming and i have not even started revising yet.the biggest problem is my chinese followed by my geog then my science then my maths than my dnt and my english.well i think i suck at studying and everytime someone asks me for like how to do a question or wat hw do we have and i dnt have an ans i feel so dumb and guilty.dumb for not being able to ans them and guilty for not listening in class.i dnt do all the weird weird stuff during lessons or anything but i stil cant seem to concentrate i seem to stray away by thinking of sm unnecessary stuff which is obviously unnecessary for me to be thinking abt those stuff.well and i realised tht i've been saying alot of things tht doesnt make sense these days.i cnt control wat im saying.i think i shld jus shutup and not tok anymre and try to think more and concentrate in class.

aft living 12yrs+ of my life i stil dnt noe hoch is the real me.i dnt noe if im actually damn noisy or damn quiet or im like now wat i am or smth else.im not sure.i stil dnt noe...which is such an idiot..i cnt believe how sm ppl can stand me and my juniors can treat me as a senior and can tell me every single thing.i mean everyone can tell me their problems but i dnt understnd how they can think tht i can actually help them or make them feel beta.well i hpe i did help the ppl actually.and if i really did i am really happy.i finished all my hw tmr im goin to cme hme as early as i can and finish my maths tution work bcos there is tution tmr night and if can i will TRY to practice my piano which is a really hard thing to do since i think its a very ...thing to do?i dno wat ...means.how dumb can i get...

im not sure if we are meant to be the best of frens like u and i say we are.bcos i think i dnt even mean a thing to u.i dnt understnd u at all u are more comfortable speaking in ur own mt language so u dnt actually tell me stuff which is wat best frens do.so im not really sure...

depend on no one and expect nothing.

hello.im bak into the negative thinking again.i really need smone i can TRUST srsly.cos this yr rochelle streaming dnt wan disturb her.so now all i can do is keep everything to myself.sry for all the times wen im so noisy myself but wen im doin work and ppl are making noise i ask you all to keep quiet,sry for being so selfish and self-centered and thinking of myself only.i said it wifout thinking.sry,pls forgive me..

theres so much work nowadays.i dnt even have a life man.and theres so many test which i can only fail or jus pass.which is not wat i want.but im not working hard for wat i want.im jus slacking away and jus finish my h/w and never revise.MYE is cming and i have not even started revising yet.the biggest problem is my chinese followed by my geog then my science then my maths than my dnt and my english.well i think i suck at studying and everytime someone asks me for like how to do a question or wat hw do we have and i dnt have an ans i feel so dumb and guilty.dumb for not being able to ans them and guilty for not listening in class.i dnt do all the weird weird stuff during lessons or anything but i stil cant seem to concentrate i seem to stray away by thinking of sm unnecessary stuff which is obviously unnecessary for me to be thinking abt those stuff.well and i realised tht i've been saying alot of things tht doesnt make sense these days.i cnt control wat im saying.i think i shld jus shutup and not tok anymre and try to think more and concentrate in class.

aft living 12yrs+ of my life i stil dnt noe hoch is the real me.i dnt noe if im actually damn noisy or damn quiet or im like now wat i am or smth else.im not sure.i stil dnt noe...which is such an idiot..i cnt believe how sm ppl can stand me and my juniors can treat me as a senior and can tell me every single thing.i mean everyone can tell me their problems but i dnt understnd how they can think tht i can actually help them or make them feel beta.well i hpe i did help the ppl actually.and if i really did i am really happy.i finished all my hw tmr im goin to cme hme as early as i can and finish my maths tution work bcos there is tution tmr night and if can i will TRY to practice my piano which is a really hard thing to do since i think its a very ...thing to do?i dno wat ...means.how dumb can i get...

im not sure if we are meant to be the best of frens like u and i say we are.bcos i think i dnt even mean a thing to u.i dnt understnd u at all u are more comfortable speaking in ur own mt language so u dnt actually tell me stuff which is wat best frens do.so im not really sure...

depend on no one and expect nothing.